Dinny's Online Diary: pain

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December 15, 2012

When A Girl Cries

Diny A December 15, 2012 my love , Note Tambah Komentar

"When a girl cries over a boy
that means she misses him",
well that's true.
"When a boy cries over a girl
that means no one could ever love her
like that boy".
Haha Are you sure??
this world is not as big as apple tree's leaves.
She definitely will find another boy
who will cry for her!!!

January 26, 2012

What I Want

Diny A January 26, 2012 love , pain Tambah Komentar

I want you to love me like how i want you to love me.
I want you fight for me. I really want a man who can die for me by his love.
Who can fight for me when everything gets down.
He would never give up on me and would never let me go, even the hardest situation.
He Who will sacrifice everything to get his love, even if He must begging on her feet.
He will do it becoz his love just too much.
He will do everything just becoz he don't want to make her sad.
Why always me who always been fighting for him WHY???

I do everything even if i must begging on his feet.
That is just a wish he would carry over my shoulder and hug me.
Don't care if he would just kick me.
And I understand that his love isn't that much.

December 14, 2011

I Miss You & Our Old Memories

Diny A December 14, 2011 pain , Relationship Tambah Komentar

I know it's been 1 year 5 months. I understand if maybe boredom has come or something i don't know. Only pain that i feel, when someone who was making me feel special has been changed. What i must do? Nothing!! I saved this pain, wish you will be back like old, wish a miracle would come to change everything, wish time can be turned back when you loved me like no-one has ever done that to me ! where is that feeling that grown in your chest ? Where you throw that feeling to?? Are you still wanting me? I'm too much putting hopes on you. I miss you, miss you and our old memories !! Okay don't be sad

December 11, 2011

Little Note

Diny A December 11, 2011 Diary , Note Tambah Komentar

uum WeLL, i have little note that i always write when something just i can't show and its little important to being published :D,becoz whenever i write down my feeling i feel little better. you guys can read?? Absolutely not

this one little old. And my note is messed up

. And again its in Indo language guys

i'll just translate some words that you guys who aren't indonesian can understand

Okay let's get started

21 nov 2011
sedih... Sedih ini gak berujung, kapan kamu terakhir nangis? Last nite, yesh LastNITE !!! Air mata kembali menetes. Kenapa kau tidak membunuh ku saja? Aku capek letih lesu lemah, nah loh? Anemia dong! Wkwk. . . Rasanya pengen mati, nyadar sih, yang ngomong gitu cuma orang yang lagi frustasi aja, tapi kan aku lagi frustasi. Frustasi tingkat presiden barack obama neh, jengjeng *e kunti e bencong* nah loh latah! Dah sih segitu aja.

Oky, this my note just telling that i was very sad , sad without an ending. When i cried last time?? Last nite yes last nite, my tears flow again. Why didn't he just kill me?? I'm tired tired tired totally tired. Feel like wanna DIE. I know only frustrated people say that. But now i think i'm one OF them. I'm frustrated so damn frustrated.

November 22, 2011

I am not sad

Diny A November 22, 2011 pain , 1 Komentar

I'm not sad anymore
I'm just tired of this place

If My Room Walls

Diny A November 22, 2011 love , pain Tambah Komentar

if my room walls could talk
it would tell you how much i cry out to you
if my room walls could talk
it would tell you how much pain that you left in me

November 19, 2011

Poem

Diny A November 19, 2011 pain , Tambah Komentar

Breeze on my face
the sound of waves breaking
that sand was cold
the sun emits its warm light and soft
Birds looked happy with his partner
he frolicked and exchange feelings,
so damn beautiful.
The sun still friendly
lonely and alone here,
only birds and the clouds between the blue sky thats giving accompany
seemed to know how I feel.

Pain ???!

Diny A November 19, 2011 Diary , pain Tambah Komentar

And you teach me about what is pain. Hellooo? Can anybody explain me Why this word called "PAIN"must be exist in this world?? don't lecture me beib, more you take me there more it will be paining. What must i do with you huhhhhh??? I wanna LEAVE !!, But i'm not strong enuf to do it! Its still being said that you are still my happiness but,, ermmmmmm i HATE that feeling. Once i tried not think about you feeling like angry, then whatttt? In morning after wake up again thinking of you....and so much very sad landed in my heart. But with or without you all i get is heart full of pain!! So much pain. . . . .!! My heart is like in a cage and a knife is stabbed in, and its really bleeding heavilyyy,,,, ermm yeah not so feel good to share this thing in here. from some months ago, my life is full of sorrow. Sorrow with that condition of heart, so really really pathetic heart. Dear Heart I'm sorry, even a very intelligent doctor can never help it. And then tadaaaaaa here i am still crying over and over again for You only For you. This tears just can't be count. If you talk bout TIRED ohhh yesh i'm so TIRED,T-I-R-E-D totally TIRED

September 30, 2011

I Hate You ??!

Diny A September 30, 2011 pain , Tambah Komentar

honestly ......
That 3 words really got me heart attack for 5 seconds.
if you not going to repair it soon i wish
i die in few seconds !!!
can you stop it?? you will really make me having a heart attack!!

September 28, 2011

Random

Diny A September 28, 2011 pain , Tambah Komentar

hmm did you see its a gladly smiling?? I don't even know. What i'm feeling now its not even a matter for you. I don't know what you feel rite now. I don't know what to do. I promised to my self not to share sadness, from now i only want to share happiness,, brahahahahah eat my laugh!!!!!!!!!!!!

A relationship ?? Hahahah, what you think about it??? Take Years to build, and its destroyed only within 1 second, how silly!! Years by now i've learnt many thing about life. They say don't expect too much, better get a surprise than get a heart break in the end. Now we learn how to love because of Allah. Everything we do, say, and love is all becoz of Allah. So when Allah take it no one will get hurt becoz we do it for Allah.

March 12, 2011

Spirit !

Diny A March 12, 2011 pain , Tambah Komentar

Seeing my face on mirror, realized what was happening, its enough the tears i wasted, must wake up and stand up, give spirit to self, whatever happened life must go on, realized life is not always flat, realized that there are many things that we can do, not always cry, being alone, and cry. dinny must wake up, build a big power on heart, dinny is not alone, say that to heart, fight it. Even it hurts and hard, There many love in this world, don't see world as a big war. Dinny can do it dinny can do it !

#Melihat wajah di cermin, menaungi apa apa yang tlah trjadi, sudah cukup air mata ini, sadar dan harus bangkit, beri smangat sama diri sendiri, apa pun yg terjadi life must go on, sadar kalo hidup gak slalu flat, sadar kalo msih banyak yang bisa di kerjakan gak cuman nangis, menyepi, dan menyendiri, dini harus bangkit. Fight it. Tata hati supaya ga trlalu sedih. Meskipun sakit dan berat, dini gak sendiri, ingat itu dlam hati, msih byak cinta di dunia ini. Dini bisa, dini pasti bisa.